Just like my pregnancy with my daughter I thought a lot about my mom, and how much I missed her. She's been gone for over three years and even though it's supposed to get easier every day some days it's like it just happened all over again and some times I can snap out of it in a day or two or sometimes it take me weeks to function with day to day things with out randomly crying!
The reason I start thinking of my mom so much at this time is because I have so many friends that have just had new babies or are about too, and they are making arrangements for their moms to come help them out with the new baby and old children if they have older ones! I remember my mom making these plans with my sister in law that lives out of town, and she made her plans according to when my sil's mom was going to be there that way they had enough help getting dinners and taking care of the house and helping with older child and of corse just cooing over the new baby.
With my daughter we had really no help what so ever, which scares me even more this go around because I have her to worry about. My daughter was born in September and my sister was getting her kids back in the swing of school and she works a full time job and could not take off to help us. And well they did mess up my epidural and the extra help was so very needed, she did all she could and would come over after work but still it was just so VERY hard. I had a very fast and easy delivery with my daughter and I hope this one is the same, but at the same time while I'm up there supposed to be focusing on the birth of our new son I'm going to be worried to death about my daughter, I have friends that have already said they would take care of her for me, until we could bring her up to the hospital but I really hate to put them out because I have no idea what time we would have to be at the hospital ( Unless I got into labor naturally I will be induced). This is were having my mom here to help would be fantastic! because she could just come over to our house and let her wake up and carry on with her normally day until it's time to bring her up there to meet her brother. Of corse I miss my mom for more reason than just to help me out but this is one time very mother or soon to be mother wants her mom! I'm sure I'll figure something out that will work for us before this happens but it's on my mind every day and well I cry over a lot and pray about it a million times a day! Okay well now that I've got that all out... I guess I can throw a random photo in here!
